One of THOSE days


I had a really shitty day yesterday. It actually started the night before as I was taking a shower before leaving to pick up my cousin at the train station. 

I really wasn’t in the mood for company to begin with. I caved because I had promised to hang out. So here I am in the shower trying to get ready in a hurry and I turned the water temperature up too high. Trust me there’s nothing quite like a high-pressure blast of scalding hot water on your genitals when you’re not expecting it. In my haste to recoil from this self-inflicted torture, I slipped and I could feel myself falling out of control. I managed to fall out of the tub onto the floor, grateful that I did not hit my head. The shower nozzle was spraying water everywhere. It was quite a mess but I consider myself lucky for not having broken anything.

Fast forward to yesterday afternoon. We decided we were going to the Bose outlet to check out some wireless speakers. On the way there I stopped at the car wash. A carwash used to be manned by about 10 guys. Now it is completely automatic where there’s only one guy that stands there helping you guide your car onto the conveyor. I took some slow-motion video from inside and at the end of the wash I got out and inspected the car. The passenger-side mirror was pushed in so I straighten that out, got back into the car and proceeded to the mall. Once I got to the mall we went to the men’s room. I drove to the other side of the mall by the Bose outlet, parked, and as I walked away from the car I patted myself to find my wallet. It wasn’t in my pocket, so I returned to the car thinking it was in the seat. When I saw the seat was empty, that rash of panic over to me as I realize that I hadn’t seen my wallet since I paid for the car wash. Immediately I backtracked all of my steps at the mall realizing that time was  of the essence. I kept hoping that I had dropped it in the parking lot and no one had noticed it. That search came up empty. I drove all the way back to the car wash, and of course it was not there. 

Resigned to defeat I stood there thinking how to recover from this disaster. As I was standing there pondering, I noticed that my rear passenger side indicator was hanging off of the car. I’m like holy shit can this day get any worse? I kept telling myself to be calm. Panic is pointless. I needed to think. I started taking an inventory of everything that was in my wallet. My bank card, drivers license, both car registrations, health insurance id, store cards and a little less than $100 cash. The only thing I had between me and insanity was a mantra that I kept repeating, everything is replaceable…everything is replaceable. 

My primary concern was making sure that no one could use my card for purchases or cash. After I calm down I was actually able to figure out how to freeze it using the app on my phone. I also then realized that I could still use my phone with Apple Pay should the need arise. So my secondary concern was my ID. Can’t drive around being black without ID. So I came home and started the quest to find the six points I will need to get another copy of my license. I can also get another copy of my registration while I am there, so it is inconvenient but not a total loss. I’m just hoping that some good Samaritan will find my wallet and turn it in, mail it or bring it back to me. I can’t do anything about my ID and stuff because it’s the holiday weekend. I also realized that it has been two years to the day that my iPhone was stolen from me. So I guess that Labor Day weekend is jinxed for me. I consider myself lucky really. These are just papers that can be replaced. I still have my life. I didn’t break my neck falling out of the shower. I guess I can consider myself ahead of the game. Now I guess I am going to find out if there is any hope for mankind if someone does the right thing and turns it in. 

*Update

I was literally searching my car again to be sure I hadn’t looked anywhere and suddenly someone comes up my driveway. A little Mexican guy with an envelope in his hand. He said he was returning my wallet he found it by Pep Boys which is near the car wash where I suspected I had dropped it. I thanked him I open the envelope to give him the cash inside but it was only a dollar left. So I thanked him again. I hate to be suspicious but I think maybe he took the cash because he couldn’t look me in the eye, but that’s all cool. I was going to give it to whoever returned it anyway. So verdict on humanity?

Catching up


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Chillax

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything of substance.  I’m on the second week of my two week vacation.  It takes at least seven days two relax for me.  So the first week I spent practically doing much of nothing.  I did my lawn, which by the way needs to be done again, and I attempted to clean my house.  I have a few things that I want to do this coming week, but I’m going to play it by ear.  The key to a vacation is to relax.  Most people, including myself at one time, plan vacations and have all of these activities that they want to accomplish.  There’s nothing wrong with that except you don’t get the rest that you should if you’re always worried about an itinerary.  That stress will counteract any relaxation that you have in mind.  My job is extremely stressful. The people that work with are challenging to say the least and I have a lot going on in my personal life that is fucking with my mind.  So I have one objective, unwind.

Christian Mingle Swindle

I thought that I would take the opportunity to discuss random things that have been going through my head over the past few days. I was just watching this commercial on television for the website Christian Mingle.  What a con.  I feel this way for two reasons, the exploitation of people using a web site to make money on their loneliness, and the façade of some spiritual connection.  I have always been one to challenge religious beliefs and customs. A lot of it doesn’t make sense.  Why are there so many religions?  How could they all be right?  Why would a god that wanted people to believe in him be so elusive?  Why is there evil in the world?  Why do bad things happen to good people?  Why don’t I see in the types of things that occurred in the bible today?  Why can’t anyone prove any of the stuff that is described in the bible?  It would seem to me logically if I were a supreme being and I wanted people to worship me, I would show myself and make it known that I was in control. Even more so, why wouldn’t I just make people behave and save myself some grief?  These are questions that most of us have asked at one time or another but only some will openly admit it.  To me it’s logical to ask those questions.   I have come to a conclusion that religion is a man manufactured form of control.  So putting that on the side let’s look at the larger question,  whether or not there is a supreme being.  When you look at the universe in its complexity and vastness, it’s hard to imagine that the Supreme Being would create all of that for the purpose of putting us here. It would be the equivalent of creating the entire solar system to support an atom.  We are insignificant. It is our own arrogance that places us in a position of relevance. This view is the core of most religious beliefs.  The bible states that god created man in his image.  I believe the reverse is true.  We created the idea of god to fill the need to have an explanation for a universe that we do not understand.  When you look at the amount of knowledge that was available at the time when these scriptures were written, you understand that these people didn’t know much of anything.  Imagine being in a position of religious authority and having the responsibility of explaining the creation of everything. That is a heavy burden.  So they took a little poetic license and came up with what they thought was a bullet proof plan, tell everyone that these ideas are from the creator himself and to question them will lead to horrible things. In essence, use fear and ignorance as a form of control. It was a beautiful plan because it still works after all this time.  So let’s put that on the side.  Does that mean that there is no conscious entity in control of things? That would depend on an understanding of consciousness. Our brains only process a small amount of the information that is part of our environment. The constructs of our thoughts are based on sensory input that is subjective. We are only aware of a small fraction of what is happening at any given moment so our understanding of reality is incomplete.  Here typically one would insert the idea that this proves there is a god and he or she is completely unknowable. Nice try but It doesn’t PROVE anything except the fact that there is more to learn.  I could go on further and further into this discussion but that’s essentially the gist of my point.  I don’t say these things to be insulting, rather as a summation of the facts as I understand them.  I put this disclaimer here because a lot of people have an emotional response when it comes to discussing religion so I tend to stay away from this conversation.  When emotions are involved, logic can go right out of the window.

I completely drifted off of the reason why I was disturbed by this advertisement for that web site.  The point is that religion is used as a tool to manipulate people.  This web site is all about getting your money.  The irony of the whole thing is that it is using a religious pretext with tools developed by science to get that money from you.  Part of the add even states that they are finding god’s match for you.  If god wanted you to meet someone, why would you need a web site?  Wouldn’t it just happen?  This segues into another pet peeve of mine, why does a church need money?  If the church is an instrument of the creator then one would think that it should be self-sustaining.  Why would they need a man-made creation, money, to survive? They need money because it’s all a scam.  It is a ruse to separate you from your money. They convince you that you’re doing something good and responsible, when all you are actually doing is lining someone else’s pocket.  It kind of reminds me of a line from the Star Trek movie. “The Undiscovered Country”, where Captain Kirk asked the creature that claimed to be the creator, “why does god need a space ship?”