Connections


It’s been a minute. Did you miss me?

A lot is going on as always. Work continues to suck. People continue to suck. Politics definitely sucks..so we won’t be talking about any of those things.

I cheated on my diet. It was a combination of working all day and not shopping then being hungry and having nothing in the house. When it’s late and you’re tired and just want something to chow down on and crash, your options can be limited. Alright..if you’re lazy and hungry you might find yourself making poor choices. It wasn’t like I didn’t try. If you call sitting in the car muttering to yourself trying. That’s what I did. I convinced myself that I would pick the lesser of many evils and get a fish sandwich…Ok maybe a combo, but my intentions were not to eat any meat so i figured the bulk of the meal was not flesh and I needed to take a shower and sleep. I will say this. It was horrible. Not only did it taste like crap, I was consumed by guilt. I thought to myself, maybe I should gag myself and puke it back up as punishment. Then I said, no, that’s crazy..that’s how bulimia starts, don’t even go there. side note: I dated someone that had this issue. It wasn’t pretty.

So as with all relapses, this started becoming a habit. And with each instance, the excuses became more and more acceptable until I’d reach a point of regression. I went to Popeye’s and got this frigging 10 piece special. As I was eating it, I felt like a savage. I could literally see the chicken being mindlessly butchered. I thought about the moment of it’s death..that moment when the chicken realized that it was over. I felt unhinged. Mentally disturbed. I’d fallen back into the trappings of industrialized death we call fast food. I knew I was better than this. I swore I would be.

It took a little longer than I expected. The pounds came rushing back. My skin was breaking out. I was bloated, miserable, headachey and yet for a few weeks I kept it up until one day my older sister called me. We hadn’t spoke for almost 2 years with the exception of my uncle’s funeral. She called to bury the hatchet (long story). During that conversation, my brother got on the phone. I hadn’t spoken to him in as long. I asked how he was doing and he started rattling off a list of afflictions. High blood pressure, diabetes, arthritis…It was then it hit me. This is where I was headed if I didn’t get my shit back together.

It’s a vicious cycle. One that is entirely preventable with proper eating and exercise. We live in a society that is geared towards profit. Big pharma is in it for the money., If the medical industry really wanted to prevent disease, they would actively campaign against the wholesale distribution of foods that are hazardous to your health. When you think of the sugar industry in the same light as the oil industry, you will see the similarities. We are fed lies about their impact on our lives and other companies make money on that lie. Big pharma would rather sell you a pill than ban the shit that got you in that condition. I know this sounds conspiratorial; it is. ¬†Once you accept that fact and zoom out to see the bigger picture, you will see what I mean. When you go to the doctor they will tell you, don’t drink, don’t smoke but you will do it anyway. Knowing this, they prescribe pills. This is what big pharma is gambling on.

Anyway, I shook myself out of the coma and decided to reign in my bad eating habits to regain the momentum I had before. This is where I am now. My body is not letting me off the hook easy but i have no one to blame but myself.

So. I have a birthday coming on Monday. I don’t have to work that day but it looks like it’s going to be cold as hell. This is what happens when you’re a winter baby. Your birthday can suck. If you plan parties, you have to choose wisely because nobody like coming out in the cold. Well if you live in the Northeast like me.

I’ve been working on some new music. This is what keeps me sane when I don’t go out shooting as much as I should. It’s just that at the end of a work day it’s frigging dark and cold and all I want to do is chill. ¬†Long story short, (kinda late for that right?) I have a few shares for you. I hope you enjoy them..

 

Let Me Be Your Hero


This song has recently become very popular, so I figured I’d re-share it along with the lyrics

Let me be your hero

    you say you want a man
    who will understand
    so there’s no surprise
    just look in my eyes
    just look in my eyes

    you say you need a lover
    that treats you like no other
    ignore the disguise
    just look in my eyes
    just look in my eyes

    Let me be your hero
    Don’t you understand
    Let me be your hero
    I’ll be your superman

    I’ll be your superman

    Look up in the sky
    Your love has got me high
    let me be your hero
    I’ll be your superman

    let me be your hero
    let me be your hero
    I’ll be your superman

    is a bird?
    or is it a plane?
    it’s just a man
    that’s gone insane
    in love with you
    don’t know what to do

    baby won’t you set me free
    let me reveal my identity to you
    you can be my kryptonite
    you can come to my crib tonight

    Written, produced and performed by Darrell Hargett
    copyright THP PRODUCTIONS

And down we go…


This is an extension of the piece Return of the Merman, entitled The Bottom of the Sea.

I think it turned out rather well. Give it a listen and let me know what you think.

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Summer Breeze becomes Autumn Leaves..


Just a little song I put together yesterday I thought I’d share…

summer breeze
became autumn leaves
seems like only yesterday

it’s been a while
since i felt your smile
it was like a summer day

you said to me
my love set you free
and you stole my heart away

summer breeze
becomes autumn leaves
seems like only yesterday

seasons change
nothing is the same
ever since you walked away

summer breeze
became autumn leaves
seems like only yesterday